Feeling Thoughtful

Just yesterday I was texting back and forth with a friend that I haven't had much contact with in the last couple of months. I guess that's the way it goes, life and responsibilities get in the way these relationships sometimes.

Then I started feeling nostalgic and began reminiscing about previous friendships and acquaintances. We live in a small town, so even if I don't keep in close contact with someone who was once my a great friend, I will inevitably bump into them at Walmart. I guess that can be considered both good and bad!

For the most part, I am a true believer in the saying 'everything happens for a reason'. I think that people enter and exit our lives when they need to. It can sometimes be painful, but it can also lead to growth as an individual.

When I was little I remember my first day of Kindergarten. I got on the bus and made eye contact with Kai. We were the only little girls on the bus at that time and so we sat next to each other, our feet dangling over the edge of our seat. She told me "We can be friends, but I already have a BEST FRIEND. Her name is Nicole." It hurt for a moment, but I wasn't really looking for a best friend, just someone to sit on the bus with. A few weeks later Nicole moved out of the school district, and then Kai and I were inseparable.

Kai and I eventually parted ways, but it wasn't because of some pointless drama, she too had to move to another school district. We reconnected for a bit during high school. We were never at the best friend status, but we still called each other friend.

I guess what I'm saying is that there is always a reason that people enter your life. Another shining example is the friendship I made which led me to my husband.

I truly believe that if I had not become friends with this person, I would have never met the love of my life, my true best friend. Jeff thinks we would have met some other way, it is a small town after all, but I have my doubts. We didn't hang in the same social circles at all! Though this friendship ended on a sour note, I will always be greatful because it pointed me towards Jeff.

Some people enter your life and stay close to your heart forever. Some fill a void that desperatley needed to be filled, and then leave when the time is right. I think that all of my friends, whether they were good for me or bad for me have taught me something or given me something that I will keep forever.

Now, if you've actually taken the time to read this silly blog please don't misunderstand me. I don't think my friends aren't important. I would love to be able to keep all of my friends close to me forever, and I hope that there are a few who will be in my life forever, but I know that the majority of them will drift away when it's time. It could be by distance or birth of a child or just a natural drifting apart because we don't need what we were giving each other anymore.

Had to Change The Layout

I guess some people couldn't see what I was posting with the other colors. Bear with me here, I'm new to editing my layout on blogspot, so I'm sure there's going to be some funny looking stuff on here for a while. But, if you can read it, I guess that's all that matters!

My 25th Birthday

My 25th birthday came and went with a bang! We ended up celebrating with family and friends at our house, and I was in pajamas by 10:00. It was nice to lay low.

I can't believe that I'm 25! I don't consider it a high number, but it seems like only yesterday I was graduating high school. Now I'm a married woman with a real life job and mortgage. It's scary how things can change in such a short amount of time.

My present from my hubbie. A Coach purse! I'm officially spoiled!

Insurance....Why Do I Bother?

Every pay period I pay a certain amount towards my insurance. It's the smart responsible thing to do right? I always figured I was covered for anything I needed, as long as the Dr. requested it.

Now I need to have a something done, and my insurance won't cover it. We're looking at almost a thousand dollars. Yes they'll take payments, but that's not the point! Why am I paying for insurance every month when it doesn't help me when I need it?

And don't worry, it's not a boob job! :)

Enough Already!

Jeff and I went to the brand new bowling alley last night with our friends Doug and Sara. We had so much fun! They had new shoes, new balls, new lanes, and the place was just CLEAN. The employees were very attentive to our needs and made sure to come by every 20 minutes or so to see if we needed refills or would like to order some food. It’s nice to finally have another place where we can hang out with friends…and it didn’t cost us an arm and a leg to do it!

The only black spot on the evening happened when a group of 16-17 year olds sat next to us to play a game. On the other side of them was a family with a little boy about 3 or 4. At first it was no big deal. Then they opened their mouths. Every other word they said was either the F bomb or faggot, or my personal favorite ‘that’s so gay!’ Because I’m sure we’re all aware that a bowling ball not hitting the pins is totally homosexual. It doesn’t even make any sense!

After several minutes of listening to this, I finally said something to them when it was my turn to bowl. It wasn’t rude or mean…but they decided to make something of it, and Jeff stepped in. It was all stopped before it got out of hand and they ended up playing pool instead of bowling.

So here’s my problem. Why is it okay to use the word faggot? Or the ‘that’s so gay!’ comment. It’s being used as a slur and somehow it’s like it has become socially acceptable. I’ve seen kids use it in front of their parents and the parents don’t even bat an eye. I’m sure if they were using the N word it would be a different story.

Maybe this doesn’t happen everywhere else. Maybe since Susanville is such a close minded town it’s okay for these kids to run their mouths that way. But what are their parents teaching them by not correcting the behavior? What about when they move to a bigger city and these terms have become second nature? I just picture these kids 10 years from now in a corporate office giving a report…’and the reason we are in the red this year is due to the public not being informed of our product, which is totally gay! Maybe if that fag, John, would have spent a little more time on advertising, this wouldn’t be the case.’ Can you even imagine?

Valentine's Day

Jeff and I never do much for Valentines Day. It's not that we don't enjoy celebrating eachother, we just never feel the need to go to dinner on that day. Besides with Susanville having very view dining options, it's too crowded and crazy to try and go out on that night.

So we opted for a night in, he made me dinner and I made dessert. We played a new card game and called it a night.

Baking Away

Ever since Jeff gave me my new mixer for Christmas, I've caught the baking bug. It's a shame since I can't eat most of it, but I'm sure my father - in - law appreciates it! Most of these recipes are my first attempts, so don't judge the way they look!

Lemon Meringue Pie...and Chocolate Chip Cookies in the background.


Lemon Poppy Seed Short Bread


Peanut Butter Cookies (Jeff's dad's favorite)


Homemade Peanut Butter Cake w/
Chocolate Butter Cream Frosting