Time for an Update!

Sorry for the lack of updates, I’ve been super busy at work, and our computer at home has been taken down so we can work on the baby’s room. If you’ve been reading Jeff’s blog at all, you know that we’ve been traveling like crazy and having a great time. I guess we’re trying to get it all done before parenthood takes over and we find it difficult to do even the most mundane tasks.

Everything is going well in babyland. I’ll be 32 weeks tomorrow and I can’t believe how quickly the time has passed. It doesn’t seem that long ago that I was waving my positive pregnancy test in Jeff’s face and yelling “I’m pregnant!” I remember thinking at the time when I was just a measly 5 weeks along that January 20th was so far away. Now I’m in the single digit countdown and I’m starting to get both excited and anxious. I’ve found it hard to focus at work and I lose my train of thought a lot because I am so preoccupied with this little one. I’ve been starting to wonder if she’ll have a lot of hair like Jeff did when he was born, will she be dark like me, or have green eyes like her daddy? Will she be an easy going baby or will we be pacing the hallway with her the first few months? And the most important ones…will I be a good mommy? Will I be able to handle the pain of labor and delivery? All these things are floating around in my head and they seem to consume me at the most inopportune times, like when my boss asks me a question, or Jeff’s telling me a story about something that happened at work!

My shower was a little under two weeks ago and it was great. Sarah is a great party planner/thrower and it all turned out perfect. There were about 30-40 people there and tons of good food. The theme: pink and brown polka dots! The cake: from a little bakery in Chico called The Upper Crust. I was actually sad when I finished the last piece. But, it’s probably a good thing we can’t get cake like that in Susanville. I’d be as big as a barn by now!

The baby and I were showered with tons of gifts that day and now I’m just focusing on the little things that we need to stock up on. I haven’t even begun to go through everything because I still have nowhere to put it! It’s mostly my fault. I picked a paint color that I thought I would love, and it turns out I don’t like it so much. So we’re going with a clean white and now the hard part is just getting the both of us motivated to work on it. Jeff won’t let me help paint, so I’m feeling pretty helpless. I have to say though, I’m feeling the pressure. I’m just itching to get it all done so it’s one more thing I can mark off my list. My nightmares these days have been that I go into early labor and I don’t have a single thing washed or packed. I know it’s ridiculous, but I suppose it a first time mommy thing.

And there’s something that I’d like to address right here, on my blog. A comment was made, I don’t know by whom, because I didn’t personally hear it, but it was said and feelings were hurt. Admist all the gift giving, the impression that some people got was that my mom didn’t get us anything because they didn't see a wrapped gift from her. That’s a very wrong assumption. The entire time I was opening presents I was sitting in a rocker/glider that she bought for the nursery. Draped on the side of it was a baby blanket that she quilted for the baby, as well as a huge stuffed bunny that works as a pillow and an overnight bag. She’s also crocheting something that she won’t let me see, which is driving me crazy!

But, that day was not about who got the baby the most gifts. It was about celebrating a new little life. Jeff and I are thankful whenever someone thinks about our daughter and decides to give her a gift. It doesn't matter to us who got her what, because we aren't keeping score. We're just glad that our baby girl is lucky enough to have so many people who love her and are excited to meet her.